To be quite honest, I am afraid of junior year. I know that every year is a step closer to college applications and adult life and freedoms that I don't yet understand, but this year for some reason seems like a much more significant leap. Everything I do will make a difference, I know how much I have to change in my behavior and my views and all of it entirely overwhelms me. "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure..." -marianne williamson. My deepest fear is having to be powerful beyond measure, my deepest fear is moving forward in my life and it's strange to me because I know very surely that I'm tired of where I am and all I've been praying for, for the past who knows how long, has been that I can get out of here and start my future asap. What I really need is the courage to do so. I'm petrified of going through the obstacles I've known I'd have to go through to get where I want to be. Why does it hit me now? Why didn't I prepare for this? Then again, this type of fear usually hits people the summer before college. I'm grateful it happened two years early. Sort of.
Hopefully this year will teach me solidity; bravery might come in handy too.
Tomorrow:
Marvin's coming.
Picnic with Lu Shen Yu and Pauline.
WRITE AN ESSAY DAMNIT!
Friday:
SLYM Bonfire - Huntington
Saturday:
Dad's day/shopping.
Possible religious/musical oral communications.
PACK PACK PACK
Sunday:
I <3 airplanes.
Arkansas :D
MICHELLE SHIN AND KIMMIE LU
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